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He loves me. He loves every single part of me. He's so crazily in love with me. I can't believe I can mean so so much to Someone, and the king over the universe at that.
He loves you too, you know? Remember how he picked you up from your brokenness and filth? How he groomed you to be the leader you are right now? You are soooo precious to Him. He loves you so much. His love just wraps around you like a blanket. That I can't help but smile knowing your story, knowing how He has made you a true diamond in His sight. I may not understand everything you're going thru. Your heart is really really concealed to me, and perharps to everyone else. I really can't decipher you. But I won't belittle every single thing you've been thru. You must've been thru so so much. I'm so sorry I wasn't there with you for the past 4 years to be your listening ear. I'm so sorry I gave up our friendship because of him. I'm so sorry I wasn't strong enough to wrestle with him to let me still be your friend. I must've missed out so much when I was gone. You must've had so many days when you were upset. I'm sorry I wasn't there.
But I'm here now. I'm still that same girl you used to know. We'll go back to the days where we played basketball at NYJC and where the basketball hit my head very very very hard. And we'll laugh all the way to your place at night, and play Fur Elise by the piano (which is already gone) and we'll watch Pirates of the Carribean till its so late. We'll crabwalk our way across the road. And we'll go back to being innocent and happy. I'll do my best to help you rediscover that innocence and joy. But you have to open your heart. And you have got to let Him heal you. I really pray with all my heart and soul that one day you'll see yourself the way He does, sinless and shining for His glory's sake. I believe it. I see it. You will.
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